hello

somewhere new.

2010-01-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

www.the-hundreddays.blogspot.com

once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance.

2010-01-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired.

and there is a english test on friday yay isn't that exciting? and the first topic of science is not related to physics yay. i'm really blur. i left my uniform in the sj room with my p and sl badge. well done rhonda. tomorrow i have to take the bus looking like a retard with that white stitch in front. andand sj room is very stuffy because the fan broke down and they are going to install air-con in the cca block rooms and its going to take a very long time and we have to wait. sigh. orientation is on friday. and samuel says there's pre camp for year one ace camp this friday straight after orientation. its going to be hectic.

no boundaries.

2010-01-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

church today. water baptism at ecp after that.lots and lotsa sanddddd. i'm a bit burnt i think.

bugis with tiffany. double chicken pepper lunch is extremely filling especially when you add cheese.

bought a blue tight skirt (: happy happy me.

school is starting tomorrow yay yay. 2 trainings this week and then its orientation on friday. its going to be a hectic month for me. with all the new "babies" coming in.the flyer looks awesome. to me. i'm proud of my work (:

2 ulcers in my mouth equals to double ouch.

can't wait for school! (:

what if my chances are already gone?

keep holding on?

happy new year.

2010-01-01T13:22:00.003+08:00

2010 started off with a bang.

had service yesterday and we had the countdown in church and lots and lots of balloons after that. i didn't get to see the pretty fireworks ):

but before going to church, i met tiffany at bugis and she was 1 hour late. but its alright, i 'm a very forgiving person. she bought me a chip and dale shirt form her hk trip. i tried it on and it looks a bit retarded on me cos i look like i'm wearing pajamas.

andand, i bought an elmo planner (:

well, i guess this year is going to be different. i'm going to graduate in a couple of months time and national exams are coming. i can already feel the stress.

hello 2010. goodbye 2009.

i guess people need you in their lives more than me. i don't know how to act or what to say now. but you won't listen anyway. maybe i should give up.

satisfied now?

don't you forget.

2009-12-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

once again, we folded boats today. lots of laughter and sadness. thank you to samuel and jiasheng for the small but sweet gestures. even though it was small, i really felt much better.

haha and we kept singing bad romance today. its was so hilarious. rah-rah-ah-ah-ah.

school is starting on monday. i need to buy my planner. if not i'm going to be so disorganized. i really want the sesame street one. but where am i going to find all the dough to buy it?
andand, i can't wait to use my yakpak (: hees.

oh yes. and i've brought back one thick stack of paper to fold again. i guess i'll be folding boats on new year's eve. but i really hope i will be able to go shopping with tiffany tomorrow. but with the jet lag and all...i don't know if we are still going.

well, its time to pull up my socks and start folding. my hair looks so flat. i miss my bouncy hair ):

please don't say something that i already know.

i can't believe that you could just laugh the whole time away and pretend as though nothing has ever happened. i think you forgotten everything. you really forgot what it really means, did you?

its no big deal.

2009-12-29T21:55:00.001+08:00

so for the past few days i've been folding boats in the corner. all i do is fold, fold and fold again.

what can i do? we're trying to reach a hundred and twenty-five thousand boats. i've a stack of papers waiting for me to fold later and i've to bring it back tomorrow. oh wells, here we go again and again. i better get started on it. tomorrow is the last session before the real thing. so that's going to be my motivation.

gossip girl is great. i can't get enough. cut my hair today.

this is just so heartbreaking. i can't bear to let it go. its a no big deal for you. but it means everything to me. i hope things get better. i really hope.

say okay.

2009-12-28T22:44:00.001+08:00

been so busy with psl lately i don't have time for myself.

psl takes up 3 days of this week and i don't know when is orientation training. i can really feel the stress. i'm so tired and worn out each day and when i come home i don't feel like doing anything but just lie down on my bed and sleep. so is this how my holidays and 2009 is going to end?

and i feel so pissed and vulgar today. thanks to the stupid coach. you really made my day eh.

well, got to prepare my speech now. and i'm having a headache. i'm getting off track cos i see my gossip girl opened in another window and lennie is talking to me about pigs getting slaughtered on channel 8.

with my paper in one hand, and my trusty pen in another, here goes nothing.

i'm so going to pamper myself after this is over.

and you know what?
taylor lautner is 17 years old. omgoodness. same as vampire :X
he's old enough to be a boyf haha. my oh my. that chest is awesome.

sighhhhh.

2009-12-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

joanne and jasmine came to church today. awesome. hees.

had pasta mania for lunch. tried their cabonara. it was extremely filling. i felt so full. and i was so dumb to order mushroom soup instead of minestrone. no wonder it was so filling.

i bought my sesame street file (:

came home and had a short nap. woke up at 7 plus and i had a quick shower cos mummy and daddy wanted to go eat. we were supposed to go to earle swensens at first but it was already very late so we headed to anchorpoint.

shorts from cotton on (:

there's school tomorrow. and its the whole day. sigh. here we go again.

have you ever told the person you love most that everything is going to be okay but you know it deep down inside your heart that its not?

and why do you keep taking everything away from me? stay out for once.

all i want for christmas is you.

2009-12-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

merry merry christmas.

received lots of beauty products from people. and nail polish too. at this rate, i have enough supplies to open a salon yay me. and do i look that old? people think i'm in jc. that's such an insult to my age haha.

me this piggy have been eating lots of cake, cookies, gingerbread men and chocolate. i feel a sore throat coming so if i don't start drinking lots of water now i'm going to suffer. but seeing all those boxes of cookies and chocolates at home its hard to not stop eating. i'm such a pigggggg.

oh yes and i'm falling in love with gold. my headphones are gold. my hairbands are gold. and my nails are gold.

i'm not done with my christmas shopping yet. i guess its okay to give late christmas pressies? its the thought that counts right?

school is opening soon. i'm looking forward! heees.

school tomorrow and lots of training next week.

i'm sorry. but as i said before, if it wasn't for you i will never be who i am.

the truth hurts.

2009-12-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

really tiring day today.

did christmas shopping. didn't really buy much. but i bought 3 metallic hairbands from diva. lots of love <3

and i didn't manage to buy my white converse sneakers yesterday. they didn't have size 6. christmas party tomorrow. its going to be fun. but to me it doesn't feel like christmas at all. sigh. its like, something important is missing.

the truth hurts, but the lie is worse.

its like something i'll never have.

2009-12-22T17:13:00.002+08:00

i like jenny's dress.

gossip girl is niceeee.

sec one registration tomorrow and hopefully, christmas shopping. i hope there's time. andand, hopefully, things won't get so complicated.

oh, and i'm going to get my white converse sneakers later.and hopefully my ear studs.

speak up.

i'm waiting.

i'm backkkkkk.

2009-12-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

yummy.

i liked the effect of the fumigation.

prefects camp was great. it was tiring but it was fun. learned so many things and dirty little secrets of people.

really bonded with 58 and now i think we're closer than ever.

and i'm so happy to hear mr kung say that this is the best camp that he ever attended even though it was the most tiring. 3 cheers for everybody. this camp would have not been successful without my dearest and beloved facils and excos. i love you guys. haha, almost everyone lost their voice except me. andand i'm going to complain because i had a hard time waking everybody up. i kept whacking everybody but they didn't wake up. PIGSSSS.

THANKYOUSOMUCH 57, for the digital photo viewer. it really warms my heart (:

andand, jacelyn has victoria's secret shampoo and conditioner. i'm envious.

now prefects camp is over. school is reopening soon. i'm scared. and i haven't done my christmas shopping yet oh no. sigh. i'm going to be very busy again. soon.

really really bad gastric and backache today ):

mummy gave me this orange hand cream thing from face shop. going to try it later haha.

i'm becoming a bimbo-like-person thanks to camp.

andand joonie and bird bird are so mean. especially joon guan the kopitiam uncle. i know you don't read this blog. :P

sweetheart, please speak up. your silence is killing me.

backtoyourheart.xanga.com my xanga.

my hand in yours.

2009-12-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

lee min ho and kim hyung joong is so awesome.

i finally finished watching boys over flowers yay.

the ending is really cute and i really really like that necklace goo jun pyo gave to geum jan di. its just so sweet.

and this show really shows what true love is ha.

ohoh. i've created a xanga. i might swap to it.

i'm leaving for church camp tomorrow.

and i'm going to escape theme park in the morning.

i will be back next monday. church camp ends on friday and prefects pre camp is on friday too. so you can imagine the hassle in between. wish me all the best.

until then.

and to you. what ever you are thinking. i understand it.you've changed a lot.

another word to pronounce.

2009-12-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

pre camp was fun.

it took away a lot of worries.

youth camp is on wednesday. i can hardly wait. and prefects camp makes me worry so much that i can't sleep properly.

well, i'm going to curl up on my bed with bambam and read seventeen while talking to eelin and have a slumber partyyyyy yay meeeee.

fac training tomorrow wow-thats-so-great-i-can-hardly-wait.

andand, jeyna misses meeeeee. am going to give her a big hug in camp.

sigh. even though you don't know my feelings.

i miss you.

permanent.

2009-12-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

me, py, nabil, js, kh.

sentosa sentosa.

salt. sun. sea. sunburn. tanning oil. grilled shrimp pringles. bikini. hot flushed skin. scandals. flour. water bombs. banana boat.dog and bone. herbal essences shampoo. seashells. laughter. smiles.

and a $5.50 boston nut brownie which was meant for jiasheng but it ended up on his face. and getting salt water all over it. my heart did a somersault. sigh.

pre camp for youth camp tomorrow.

wednesday to friday is youth camp. friday to next monday is prefects camp. christmas is next. and i still have the stupid horrible idiotic record breaking thing to attend and it eats up 5 days of december. i hope i don't fall sick and i hope my back won't hurt so much and i really really hope my heart won't hurt that much too.

honey what is wrong with you? speak up. because i'm listening no matter what.

and to bestie lew jia min. cheer up sweetheart.

i bet you won't read this but i hope that you'll cheer up. SMILEZXZ.

2009-12-12T22:46:00.004+08:00

me and tiffany acting cuteeeee.

sigh. my back is aching. i have a headache. i feel extremely tired. and i feel feverish. what is wrong with me?

i asked mummy to buy honey. and i'm going to eat panadol. and i realised i have no appetite.

going to coffee bean tomorrow for breakfast.

hope my appetite improves.

sj outing tomorrow too!

once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance.

munch munch munch.

2009-12-11T23:27:00.001+08:00

had training in the morning.

but in the end i went back to school to hang up the banners. and i had a really great time bullying jiasheng.

andand i think i ate a lot today. like.a.lot. i had like 2 dinners, 2 lunches. and now, i'm craving for instant noodles! i have this urge to cook one packet now. but the clock says 1055pm so i guess i will just throw the idea of eating it. maybe tmr hmm.

for the past few nights i've been talking to eelin on the phone and it feels very slumber party-ish. i will hide under my pink blanket and hug bambam tightly and we will just talk about anything. i find it fun!

am watching boys over flowers now and jun pyo looks so cute when he discovers that ramen can be eaten raw. his expression is hilarious.

i've already told you so many times. i keep repeating the same thing again and again. dearest, i hope you understand.

shoppingzxz.

2009-12-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

shopping with aunt and cousins today at town.

bought my yakpak. 2 tops from zara. black tights form zara. much much much love.

lunched at a japanese restaurant. chicken katsu don is niceeeeeeee.

had a great time today but my back is aching. sigh.

well there is FAC training tomorrow and that makes me happy (:

cheerios. i'm going to watch boys over flowers now. and then read gossip girl. happy happy me.

i love you v.

we've run out of words and time.

2009-12-09T22:26:00.001+08:00

i complain i complain i complain.

meetings after meetings after meetings.

it is never ending.

i'm having a headache and my back is aching very badly and i'm tired but i can't rest because here i am working my ass off on the proposal because of some people who can't use their tiny minds to think and they freaking destroyed my camp that i have planned so hard and slogged my guts to make it a fun one and i'm wasting all my time on it when i could be sleeping and curled up on my bed reading gossip girl. i feel so heartbroken and i really feel that everything has gone down the drain again.

i just need your smile right now and you to turn around and tell me that everything is okay and everything will be fine.

but i know i'm still dreaming.

and you are living in the twilight fantasy.

dream on, rhonda wong.
well, there goes my happily ever after.

next time, i'll just seal my mouth.

vampirezxz ):

2009-12-09T18:21:00.000+08:00

camp meeting in the morning.

after that we were off for our recce trip.

swee hong came along. and he bought frozen strawberries. he offered me one. frozen strawberries are colddd and yummy. mmmm. but i didn't really enjoy the coldness of it thanks to my sensitive teeth. grrr. i hate this.

there's a camp meeting tomorrow but i'm still deciding whether should i go for it. there's a really painful pimple at the side of my face. sigh.

love gossip girl! hees.

sigh. time fly faster please.

i can't take it anymore.

the silence is killing me.

its always you and me.

2009-12-08T22:29:00.003+08:00

went to watch new moon today with my 3 twilight buddies.

swee hong, vampirezxz and eelin.

but me and eelin went for a manicure before that. it costed us 6 dollars because it was an express manicure. but at least they used OPI nail polish. swee hong is so mean. he said that the colour of my nails looked like the ones of a dead person. eelin said it looked scary. mummy says i look like a monster. thankyouverymuch lorrrr.i want a manicure again (:

jacob is so sizzing hot. i spent the whole time oogling at him and his very muscular chest. imagine snuggling up to that chest hees! swee hong said that his chest is flat. haha. whatever. new moon isn't as nice as twilight though. the ending was horrible.

okay. so i'll stop. and i'll live my life.

sigh. its really hard to let go.

i still love you.

right here, right now.

2009-12-07T16:21:00.001+08:00

spent the whole day at home reading gossip girl and watching boys over flowers and eating instant noodles.

been lazing around lately.

will be going to school tomorrow to hang up the sj banners then go watch new moon with my 3 twilight buddies. even though i should be happy that i'm going to be watching new moon but i don't feel the least happy. i can never be as happy as before.

well, i'm going to be very busy in the next few days. i'll be preparing for camp. and i don't know why people are making life so hard for me. can't you guys just use your tiny little minds and tell me if you can't go.

i know you don't read this blog anymore but

yes sweetheart, i know things aren't the same anymore.

i guess i should let time reveal everything. but i really never felt so alone before. i told you countless times that i won't be able to let go. i really hope you'll just understand what i am trying to say. i have never loved someone so much before. and you mean a lot to me. i still love you as much as before. but i don't know if its the other way round. i really want the old you back and i want to rewind back the time so everything will be alright and nothing like this would ever happen. i love you. i really want you back. if you ask me why i'm doing this its because i'm a girl. if sorry could cure everything, why would there still be laws, police and jail? saying sorry doesn't make everything better. and all i can say right now is that i never felt so disappointed and you really broke my heart.

2009-12-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

i want to get back.

as i always said. its hard to beat a person who never gives up.

if my heart was a house.

2009-12-06T23:19:00.002+08:00

the prawn (:

tiring day yesterday.

had zpn > 9 course dinner yummy.

lots of laughter, smiles and redness.

the food was not that bad. i liked the fish and the abalone. and i asked eelin to help me to peel the prawn hees (: and this eelin got bullied by everyone for eating too many peanuts! haha.

experienced two challenging moments. i really couldn't take the 45th anniversary one. i was really on the verge of tears. all our hard work is poured down the drain. how many times has this happened to us? this is really unfair. i need a hug right now. sigh.

i don't know what i can say to make you understand.

i guess you will never understand me.

i don't know how to explain everything to you and if i do i will take ages to explain it and i don't think you will want to hear it. i hope things will be better. i want the old you back. i really miss you a lot. it means everything to me but i don't know what it means to you. 459 still. xoxo.

from where you are.

2009-12-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

my face is cut off ):

went out with joanne today. okay fine i was late but i treated you to fish and chips from chippy as a punishment.

the chicken curry thing with cheese from chippy is niceeee and double chocolate frap makes me go mmmmm.

went to far east to get clothes for the dance and i must say that its a small world. i bumped into 3 of my church friends. and we saw wanyee and eelin too.

lots of laughter, gossip and yawning.

had a great time (:

zpn is tomorrow as well as dance practice. its going to be a long day for me.

i should be sleeping early but i'm watching boys over flowers with a cup of warm milo in front of me and a packet of potato chips in my hands.

off i go. cheerios.

it may mean nothing to you but it means everything to me.

i hope you know.

ily. xoxo.

get back.

2009-12-03T22:39:00.001+08:00

taught the sec 1s how to wear their uniform today.

i was so red. i embarrassed myself today. i forgot the most basic thing.

had lunch at e18teen again. tried baked pasta in creamy white sauce. as usual, i couldn't finish. so vampirezxz helped me do the rest.

am doing the booklet and listening to owl city at the same time. i just found out that there's a song called panda bear and i listened to it and the word panda bear comes out once in the whole song. once only. ohmygoodness.

haha. but i stopped doing the booklet already and i'm going to watch boys over flowers and go va-va-va- voom over ji hoo's priceless smile hees.

andand, i'm happy because

i'm going out with joanne lew aka miss wugui tomorrow.

i'm going to get my gold coloured unto headphones soon!

45th is coming.

prefect camp is coming.

yay. happy happy me. but not as happy as before.

time together is just never quite enough.

so tell me darling do you'd wish we'll fall in love..

cause everything is nothing without you.

2009-12-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

i cry i cry i cry i cry.

my computer can't read my thumbdrive. and its making my computer lag. and i can't afford to lose all the information inside, especially not today. i have a camp meeting at 4pm and i have to rush out the proposal and booklet but i can't even have access to the thumbdrive! i'm really at a loss now. i really don't know what to do. sigh.

but anyways, thank you to the people who made our bbq a success yesterday.

laughter, drinking, stupid acts and smiles. eelin's face was really red. and we wasted food again. sigh. seems like we bought too much. and there was salmon! hees. thanks to vampirezxz.

i wish i could turn back the time to how we were last time. i wish i knew what was going to happen so i can avoid this from happening and hurting you.

what if.

2009-11-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

wahahazxz. samuel kor. drawn by jia sheng and brian ting.

proudly done by vampirezxz.

i can see bambam! hees.

random picture of me and krystal on saturday eating ice cream before church.

had dance practice today.

and it was hilarious. because of benjamin. and i managed to catch up after missing out 2 sessions (:

and benjamin posted the video of us dancing in facebook! wahlao eh. i am so mad. i made so many mistakes you know. i am so embarassed. whoever is watching the video right now, don't laugh at me kay.

yay. tomorrow is our 58th bbq but i have dance practice in the morning. and i just found out that i have dance practice everyday. sigh.

maybe i'm going swimming tomorrow. but i don't know if i can fit into my costume or not. rhonda has been eating a lot and not exercising regularly. and many people say my arms are getting bigger. ohmygoodness.

and thank you to all the people who stood by me all this while. especially eelin kong (: but i'll be okay. i really appreciate everything.

i still heart you as much as before.

your heart can't lie. even though your face may try.

and you know it.

Money money monehhhh.

2009-11-29T21:51:00.001+08:00

counted money in hq today. and i just found out that we are the zonal champion yay!

and i tell you. i'm going to kill benjamin. he went to throw seaweed shaker into the tin. and i counted the money in his tin. then when i poured all the money out, i was like, WAHLAO EH. WHAT'S THIS?! sharmine told me that it was seaweed shaker. i looked at my hands. the shaker was left inside the tin for how many days? i counted. 5 days. 5 WHOLE SOLID DAYS LEH. omygoodness. i was so sick manzxz. but thanks to sharmine for helping me to count while i sat there and complained like a bimbo. but sharmine bullied me ):

but you know what? i had shaker fries for lunch wahahazxz. and i saw mr bump, mr happy and the rest of the little miss gang at taka dancing. it was really amusing.

auntie kong and i went to fep after that and i bought my shorts. much much love. and eelin finally bought her dress instead of her off shoulder top. and i was so red again. eelin screamed so loudly all of a sudden and i had to hide my face. shopping cures depression. but only for a while. hmm.

now i'm like doing the camp booklet while listening to owl city and drinking iced milo wahazxz. i so want to watch boys over flowers right now. and you are supposed to do the booklet not me. hmph. i've been doing almost everything. but its okay, i'm a very forgiving person. hees.

if my heart was a house, you'll be home.

sigh. be safe.

xoxo.

2009-11-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

today is such a nothing to do day.

the constant drilling outside my home is driving me nuts.

i can't eat my curry noodles and watch jurassic park 3 in peace.

sigh.

cut my hair on thursday. its looks kinda boyish ):

vampire ):

smile.

2009-11-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

i'll smile when i'm tired.

i really really miss you. take care of yourself in kl.

new perspective.

2009-11-26T17:38:00.002+08:00

flagday yesterday. a whole lot of thanks to my 4 wonderful friends who helped me.

had sl meeting today and lunched after that. lost my appetite again. only 5 spoonfuls of ban mian and i didn't want to eat anymore. but yeah. i thank God that auntie kong was there for me yesterday listening to my crying. i feel better and relieved.

i don't know if you read this blog anymore but

i guess this is the end for us.

i still love you as much as before.

things will never be the same as before but i hope things will be better for us in the future.

i've got to get used to doing things without you and i know its going to be tough for me but i know i'll be able to do it.

i'm so sorry.

i love you.
i miss you. a lot.

a message, just a message and a smile, keeps me alive.

broken.

2009-11-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

i'll be there at the back of your mind from the day we met till the very last time.

ji hoo (:

2009-11-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

watching boys over flowers now on mysoju.

and seeing that episode 2 is broken, makes me go wahlao eh.

its so frustrating.

i think i'm hooked to korean drama and gossip girl.

ji hoo is so hot (:

you've promised to take care of yourself okay?

keep your word.

i'm worried.

HARU HARU.

2009-11-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

church in the morning.

lunched at harbourfront with the youth.

wanted to go to asian kitchen for lunch but decided not to because of some reasons so we decided to eat at ramen ten but shaun said it was too expensive so we went to food junction instead. after lunch the guys went to play pool while the girls went to walk around and search for orange pastel nail polish for tiffany's friend.

eileen was so funny. she said why don't you just use acrylic paint? HAHA.

i finally finished my admin thanks to my dearest pui yee deputy. ROCKS (:

multitasking is tough especially when you are talking to vampire and eelin on msn while admin-ing. HAHA.

and i've finally gotten into the korean craze. i love super junior and boys over flowers!

going to buy breakfast for dearest vampire tomorrow (:

get well soon.

2009-11-21T22:10:00.003+08:00

sigh. vampire is sick.

get well soon okay?

its not the same without you.

2009-11-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

thanks peepos i know you love my sandwiches right?

i know jiasheng loves them a lot. he was like rhonda, your sandwich damn nice. damn nice i tell you. damn nice.

had breakfast making for training today. i volunteered to make breakfast for 07.

and i helped to cut the cucumber. and everyone said i can't be a housewife next time and i totally agree with that. the slices were so thick and inedible. so i just sort of threw the slices on the sandwiches and gave it to 07. crafty me. and jacelyn had the most disgusting sandwich of all. she mixed tuna and sardine and threw in on the bread. and i was disgusted cause i could see the oil from the sardine dripping down and the slight makes you go eee.

haha and i brought home the jar of nutella!

screened twilight at IT room 3 after that (:

lunched at tiong and i ate ban mian again. and sadly, there wasn't any mushrooms. sigh.

and i nearly lost my appetite cause of eelin's wonderful dining etiquette. the canoeists at the nearby table told eelin to eat properly too. and she kept screaming and people were staring at us and i was so red.

sigh. and i didn't go for my amundsen outing cause i was very tired and i had no mood and the main reason is because i watched 2012 already. i miss sam bryan cmc bella bird and all the rest of amundsen.

ahwells. vampire is coming back tomorrow so i should be happy.

i miss you.

where are you now?

2009-11-19T22:43:00.005+08:00

photos : we had to drag leonard to take a picture with us.

joon guan is a zhi lian gui. ACT CUTE. haha.

yong xiang is so cute!

damien's face is so extra in the photo.

monday - watched 2012 with vampire. and vampire thought i cried but i didn't even though i was on the verge of tears not because of the movie. but because of cramps.

tuesday - training. and vampire left for thailand ):

wednesday - GRADUATION NIGHT WAS AWESOME. everyone looked so handsome and pretty and chio and shuai. and the mtv game was hilarious. 3 couples were invited on stage and they had to act out a scene each and that sent felicia and sinvyest and me laughing away.
and i got suanned by felicia and the rest. as usual. i liked daphne's dress. i think her dress was the best.

the food was not really that nice but i liked the soup so i guess it was still okay.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow's training. i don't know why. and jiasheng just messaged us that we have to stay back to stick the stickers on the cans to get ready for flagday next wednesday. ahwells. there goes my obs outing.

and right now jiasheng is trying to cheer me up by showing me lame pig videos on youtube. he said he laughed till he hit the table. but i didn't laugh at all. except the yin lang part.

i'm one happy girl. happy boy bought me a pair of newurbanmale slippers. thanks (:

and i'm really really really happy now. vampire is coming back in 2 days.

sigh. my tummy is protesting. i'm craving for a mug of hot chocolate and chocolate muffins right now. hees.

speechless.

2009-11-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

i always get disappointed. always.

why must it be from you? why you?

the same thing is repeating itself. i don't want to experience it again.

every time i ask myself, why must it be so hard?

well. i guess you just don't understand how i really feel.

Amundsen.

2009-11-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

i'm back.

and i'm really tan now. vampire says i look like charcoal. and everyone says i've become really tan. oh wells. and my lips are dry and cracked and it hurts a lot. i have been applying chapstick every now and then.

andand. i have mosquito bites, insect bites and rashes all over. misery.

it turns out to be that obs is a course and not a camp. samuel, felicia, bryan and i were in amundsen, together with 12 other people from different schools. i think our group is really quiet but we are really bonded and gelled together. and i've got to say that everybody in the group has different characters. especially my bestest friend. WHATEVER! haha. and i know i'm evil but i can't stop laughing at cmc because of his clueless and blur expressions. and i always laugh the loudest and i always get suanned by samuel and felicia.

and i can't believe that i managed to survive the sea and land expedition. i carried the really heavy bag during land and kayaked like crazy during sea. i was in the kayak with 2 guys. i should have gone with bryan instead. the third person is a pure slacker. it made no difference at all. and he didn't even apologize to me for accidentally hitting my head with his paddle. there's a bruise there now. thank you very much. andand, i forgot to mention that i got kicked in my face and chest when i was sleeping by my bestest friend. and it hurts. felicia hugged and pushed me away and she rested her leg on my thigh and making it hard to move. pure misery.

so many things happened. i was so sian and reluctant on the first day and i keep complaining to b, f and s about my homesickness and how much i wanted to eat kfc and how much i missed vampire. but on the fourth day, i didn't want to leave the campsite haha. well, i guess nothing lasts forever.
all the photos are with samuel. argh.

thanks felicia for taking care of me.
thanks samuel for the whitening lotion even though it gave me pimples but ya. its nice of you to loan me some.
thanks bryan for letting me bully you and thanks for helping me.

i miss OBS! amundsen rocks (:

but i miss vampire more ):

OBS OBS.

2009-11-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is obs.
i'm feeling really nervous. and scared. i just hope everything will be fine. but all things are possible with God.

i will miss my bed.
i will miss vampire.
i will miss training.
i will miss my family.

5 days please fly by quickly ):

off i go. ly.

because you live.

2009-11-07T21:25:00.003+08:00

angkasa took this.

gb first aid course in the morning.
had a small carton of chocolate milk for breakfast. surprisingly, my gastric did not act up. thank God.

all the girls were so gentle when they are doing cpr. it made me feel so girly all of a sudden. i realised how man i became when i joined sj. but yeah.
and the practical session was hilarious. jacelyn and i hid in the level 4 toilets and the gb girls were supposed to find us. and we were in a weird position. jacelyn was lying on my thigh. then after a while, nobody came. so we started banging the cubicle walls to attract attention. and so 2 groups came in after a while, and their first reaction was so funny. they all started laughing!

pb meeting at kfc and played hangman and stared at big noodle's retarded photos in his camera album.

and i realised that all excos have different ways of laughing. eelin's is the worse HAHA.

obs is on monday. i am looking forward to it in a way.

i trust you. even though we both come from 2 different worlds and we may not agree with each other every time but i still have my 100 percent trust in you. ly.

only love can say.

2009-11-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

art lesson was a total waste of time. once again, we did nothing productive.

but we played with the baby hamsters in the art room! they were so adorable.

met vampirezxz for lunch then went back to school for training.
it rained again. as usual. it was cold and gray.

having headaches nowadays. i don't know why. i guess i need to stock up on panadol.

yesyes. the body shop finally sells strawberry bath gel in smaller bottles. i'm going to get them (:

i miss vampirezxz. sigh. woaiini.

melt the "chocolate"

2009-11-05T22:18:00.001+08:00

i was so red just now. my tummy rumbled when we were interviewing people just now and jeyna laughed so loudly! so embarrassing. sigh.

i haven't done my research for my n level art. sighzxz. i have an art lesson tomorrow, so...well done rhonda. mr sim is going to scream at you.

andand. i really need a good massage right now. my back is aching and so are my shoulders. i feel so old.

and maybe a foot massage too.

ohoh. and i want barbie doll eyes! hees. they are so pretty.

i miss vampirezxz.

polaroid cameras are so pretty.

2009-11-04T22:44:00.001+08:00

art lesson was a total waste of time today. i should have stayed in bed and sleep sleep sleep. nothing productive was done.

but, i met vampirezxz for lunch today. saw lots of things that i adored and wanted to buy. am going to save money soon hees. HMPH and i got bullied.

'i hate monkeys.

once more, i went to pee and my brother broke my glass of water and he splashed water on my phone and the usb cable and he smashed the heart vampirezxz did for me and it broke into pieces.my heart ached. sighzxz. i hope it can be fixed.

i've been bullied ):

2009-11-03T20:28:00.004+08:00

i keep tripping over things in my house because my siblings always leaves things lying around in the house. i tripped over some toy just now and i almost fell down. and my brother is a scheming monkey.

i just went to the kitchen for less than a few minutes. and when i came back from the kitchen, i find my usb cable unplugged from the computer. GRRR. anger boils within me.

on a higher note, i will be meeting vampirezxz for lunch tomorrow. that's something to look forward to.

too much antm. hmm.

one's a natural. one's an act cute. the other. well...shocking.

and jacelyn bullied me today. she said i am nice to bully. first she ate my yogurt ice cream and she kept hitting my butt with random items. sharmine bullied me too. she kept kicking my asssss and she kept using me as her dummy and flaunting all her moves that she learned in the karate class on monday. i think i need to learn self defense.

ohoh. i saw this girl at town the other day with gold coloured headphones. my heart ached. it was so chio. the colour is so pretty. i brainwashed mummy and she said she'll get me that for christmas or soon. hees.

hees.

2009-11-02T22:08:00.016+08:00

bought obs stuff today with auntie kong, kaiqi and vampirezxz. sorry vampirezxz. i treated you like a maid. sorry. andand, that back massage was great. it made me feel better (: thanks a lot.

i took a look at my schedule just now and it almost made me cry. there are so many things i have to do and attend. eating chips and shopping cures depression. i keep munching on pringles nowadays. mummy doesn't know i almost finished the whole can. sshhhh.

oh yes oh yes.

fringe fringe please grow faster. i don't want to stay in bangzxz for so long.

training tomorrow. sianzxz.

all i want for christmas is you.

2009-11-01T22:00:00.008+08:00

tiring day yesterday.

mr k drove three of us to the airport and i was struggling to stay awake and explaining everything to him. but i couldn't cos i was so tired but thank God jacelyn was there to help me. andand, mr k was really random. we were talking about something then he suddenly cut in and said : how come popeye got spiderman one?

all of us burst into laughter.

well i guess now school is over. i'll be rotting at home. and i guess i'll be

watching gossip girl and america's next top model

painting nails

going back to school

going for camps

eating and putting on weight

going out with friends

going out with vampire (:

reading

watching more gossip girl

christmas shopping

haha. well. i guess this is what i'm going to do during the holidays. story of my life.

obs is next monday. i'm looking forward to it but i'm feeling sian.

you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess.

2009-10-30T23:48:00.004+08:00

no more lectures.

no more soaked bras and pe shirts.

no more peeping down on level 3 (:

no more chasing ang moh with the broom.

no more running along the corridors.

no more mr foo's funny actions.

well. until next year.

i will really miss my class a lot. even though we are the most notorious in the whole school but i know that they are actually really caring and taking care of each other. this year was great, but i hope next year will be better. takecare guys. ( even though i know you guys don't read this blog )
love you from the bottom of my heart *sobs* xoxo. at least i managed to control my tears (:
time flies when you are having fun SIGH.
--

spring cleaning in the morning. people said i looked like cinderella haha. and i played with foam! hees.

went to town after school. to get vampire's shirt then headed back to school for meet the parents session.

cabbed to tiong for dinner because it was raining heavily and it was colddd. kailin and me were walking to the taxi stand and she was holding the umbrella. then suddenly there was thunder and i just started screaming and kailin started screaming too and we both ran in the rain and soaking our shirts. it was so embarrassing.

--

you looked really handsome today. just like chuck in gossip girl WAHAHAHA.

lolli-lolli-lollipop.

2009-10-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

gossip girl.famous amos.sleep.uno.clannad.gossip girl.piano.

this is what i did in school today. i am addicted to clannad. i don't really watch anime but this one is nice.

jiasheng tried to psycho me into joining the admin team. haha no way man. one admin is enough. another admin? no thanks. jiasheng treated me to snow ice today. well, i made him treat me haha. after all, he owes me bubble tea.

i'm tired right now. but my proposal is not completed. how i wish i could just throw everything aside and lie on my bed and talk to you now. sigh. but i can't. xoxo.

don't forget.

2009-10-28T20:36:00.001+08:00

yakult factory in the morning. spent time looking at bacteria. i fell asleep during the talk and i almost knocked my head on the table.

lunch at e18teen chefs. with jo, pat, abi and vampire.

walked back home from the interchange with vampire. i was so tired. i seriously felt like closing my eyes and walking.

i'm so tired nowadays. and i keep forgetting what i have to do. i guess keeping an organizer is no use.

working on the proposal now. and thank you jiasheng for reminding me if not i'll definitely forget.

jacelyn is talking to me on msn and i can't understand a single word she's saying because i'm half asleep in front of the computer.

- i dislike unhelpful people.

please be more careful next time. let me tell you. planning a camp is not easy. and being camp chief isn't easy at all.

2009-10-27T22:48:00.001+08:00

sorry sorry.

2009-10-27T21:46:00.013+08:00

paintball was awesome. even though i tried to act gung ho but i ended up being a scaredy cat and hiding behind the obstacles hees. and i really really really adore the mask. it makes me look like a power ranger!

recce trip to sentosa after that. i was so late. sorry for making you guys wait. and thank you ever so much to my dearest vampire for waiting for me. i enjoyed your company :}

ah well. class 3 B dominated the whole of level 4 today because all the classes went for their SEP. i was so bored so i did lots of weird stuff with my dearest ang moh peng you.

watched shutter during english period today. acted gung ho but failed and i was a scaredy cat again once more. i was using my tie to cover my eyes and hiding behind my classmates HEES.

and i just remembered. that i joined ballet ages back. OHMYGOODNESS i can't believe that i was in ballet last time. i laugh at the thought of it. can you imagine me in a tutu? i don't think i can. but i liked the shoes though (:

down, down, down.

2009-10-25T22:15:00.006+08:00

gb course and leadership course was great.
overall, it was a really productive day. it was worthwhile. and i stayed in school until 8 plus. and as usual, eelin started laughing. the echo was really loud.

sinvyest : eh. help me eat the fishcake.
eelin : *started rubbing the fishcake on the plate with the fork*
me : don't want la. i ate so much. i feel fat.
sinvyest : eh..very oily you know.
eelin : *still using the fork and rubbing the fishcake on the plate* i'm trying to get rid of the oil.
me : you are making it worse you know that. i don't want. i have so many pimples.
sinvyest : same! see! *points to all her pimples*
me : compared to my pimples, yours is nothing.
mr k : why are you complaining about your pimples?
me and sinvyest : *stunned*
mr k : pimples are good. it shows that you are still young.
me and sinvyest : *laughing*

my dad seems to care about my complexion more than i do.

dad : rhonda, did you use moisturizer?
me : err. no. mum didn't buy for me.
dad : your face is very dry. i will get it for you.
rhonda : okay. what if i get more pimples after using it?
dad : you won't la. you spend so long hours in the sun. you need it.
rhonda : haha. okay.

went shopping today. pretty gray skinnies, two tanks, two long sleeves. much much much love.
went to clubmarc and saw this pair of green sandals. so pretty. but so aunite.
oh yes. i haven't forgotten that pair of flats i saw at town the other time. i'm gonna get it soon. i hope.

recce trip to sentosa tomorrow. yayyay. pray that it won't rain.
paintball tomorrow too. i pray that there will be no bruises.

we're falling.

2009-10-23T23:15:00.006+08:00

tiring day.
i felt so far away. you should know what i mean.
played uno. again. for the whole day. and had a bit of physics after recess. miss tay decided to stop the lesson because everyone was complaining. i was hugging my pencil case and sleeping.

i just returned from a barbecue at the carribean. it is an amazing place, i must say. when i stepped in, i was like wow.
ate a lot of food. a little conversation and lots of silence. as there were mostly adults. felt like a loner.

gb first aid course is tomorrow. leadership course after that. and hopefully, a candlelit dinner. its gonna be a long day tomorrow and i'm feeling sick and tired but i'm happy because we're gonna wear our treasured anco tee. like finally.

i seriously have no mood to complete the proposal.
maybe its because i miss you too much?

well, i'm jealous.

seize the day.

2009-10-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

played uno the whole day. horrible terrible vegetable.
did nothing productive. seriously. i wasted my time in school today.

started reading i believe you by lkh. its quite boring maybe because its by a local author? some parts are sweet and heartwarming though. but i still prefer gossip girl. i know gossip girl is trashy and full of love sex magic or whatsoever, but i still think its nice. its been so long since i read gossip girl.

and i just heard that jennifer's body is nc16. this is so unfair. i have to wait till next year, till i turn 16 legally.

training resumes tomorrow. in a way i'm happy, in a way i'm not. but at least there will be no more soaked bras and red corp tee shirts like last time. no more sweat and tcses..but yeah, i miss the old times.

i miss the times when we will gather at gess centre, eating our burgers and making eelin laugh. then jacelyn will make a lot of noise and sharmine will sit at the corner emo-ing while i change into black socks and boots and the guys will go and have their lunch at the canteen. and when we see eng kang approaching us while adjusting his beret, we stop slacking and quickly fall in. after saying yes corporal!, we'll have our water parade and eng kang will try to make nabil laugh and eelin will start spitting water all over the place and jacelyn will start smacking her butt. jiasheng will show off his muscles and sharmine will start making monkey faces. and i will just smile and realize what great crazy wonderful caring and spastic friends i have.

sigh. such great memories. time really flies.

smiles aplenty! (:

2009-10-21T21:50:00.002+08:00

oh yes. mr k seemed quite happy with the proposal. i was yakking away and damien just sat there like a stone. and whenever mr k asked me questions that i have no answers, i will stare at damien and give that help me look. yes. i bet this camp is gonna be awesome.

thank you so much v for calling me today.
if not i will be late for school which will be an unpleasant sight for everyone and especially to pb.
as i said before, i'll be clueless without you.

and i seriously wasted time today in school. camwhored and played barbie uno with friends.
its been ages since i touched an uno card.

started watching america's next top model cycle 13 and it is amazing. there's this amazing 9 year old girl who appeared in 1 of the episodes and she is a model. 9. years. old. a model. she did a really awesome catwalk in the show. i am seriously amazed.

BOOMZ!

2009-10-20T17:21:00.005+08:00

sj meeting in the morning today. all i can say is that it was fun and hilarious. and i didn't have to do minutes. and naughty mischevious scheming jacelyn whacked my butt with that monkey hammer. sharmine said jiasheng wore a tight fitting hot pink shirt yesterday. crap. i wanna see!

carrot cake from marriott hotel for breakfast, baked rice for lunch again and ice cream for dessert.
talked a lot of crap with the girls of intake 07 and i bet we made a lot of noise. bugis after that. where we helped jacelyn choose a shirt from topman for her beloved.
walked around bugis after buying the shirt as mr k announced that the meeting will be postponed to tomorrow. oh well. here we go again. i will seriously cry if he doesn't accept the proposal.
well, let's just hope everything will be fine.

am watching ris low now. its hilarious.

459 vampire.

vampirezxz.

2009-10-19T20:42:00.003+08:00

tennis was great today.
even though i played horribly.
and it was extremely hot. i am so redddd now. my nose is going to start peeling again. sigh.

pasta mania for lunch. smiles and conversation.
percy pig from marks and spencer (:

i think i'll be clueless without you.

hooray hooray.
yes. at least i managed to sort of complete the proposal.
he just has to give the thumbs up for it then we can get started doing stuff already.
i thank God that i have wonderful friends who are always there to help me when i'm really busy and cannot manage. thanks a lot.

2 meetings tomorrow. i hope i don't have to do minutes!
tiring day again.

xoxo.

chapter 2

2009-10-18T19:24:00.003+08:00

tiring day today.

at least i finished sending one email. i still have one more.
i'm editing the proposal now, with jacelyn's help.
teaching aid is still pending.
am seriously craving for herseys sundae pie now.

tennis tomorrow! i hope so.

459 v. a lot A LOT.

i love 18 (:

2009-10-17T20:13:00.003+08:00

here i am sitting in front of the computer eating fried macaroni with my left hand, blogging and at the same time, watching princess protection program. haha. multitasking (:

kfc for lunch with nabil and jon. herseys sundae pie from burger king.

my proposal is half done.
logistics list for camp is waiting for me.
teaching aid for gb first aid course is yet to be done.
and not forgetting, i still have 2 emails to send.

this is so tiring.

and i didn't know that panadol menstrual caplets are pink.
the colour is so pretty (:

all is fine.

2009-10-16T20:02:00.005+08:00

i seriously hate cramps.
i was in so much pain the whole day. the second day is always the worst. well, actually the first day was just as painful. couldn't really sleep well last night thanks to it.
cramps please go away ):

459 (:

2009-10-15T20:45:00.005+08:00

eelin : new msn look
me : haha
eelin : my msn. different picture, different name
me : haha okay. extreme makeover.
eelin : no. i look retarded in it.
me : haha. you are always retarded
eelin : you're pretty dada * pauses for a few seconds* what the. so bad.

eelin is so funny. haha.

had a really productive meeting today. discussed tons of stuff for pb camp. and during the meeting, i had a really bad headache so i couldn't process anything and i was really blur.
my arms and hands and back are still aching from yesterday. i need a massage. and panadol.

watched this. and i seriously cried.

pretty and handsome (:

2009-10-13T22:13:00.007+08:00

did this in mr lam's lesson.
mr lam was randomly making conversations with everybody in class. from lan games to piercing of ears.

i feel old. i helped to carry canteen tables and my back was aching after i carried the first one. sigh.
and during the rehearsal, i kept yawning. i really wanted to lie down and sleep. but 07 kept me entertained. lots of laughter, smiles, sweat, randomness and foolishness.
and this was what i did to my minutes of meeting during the meeting today. i was that bored. i turned the paper into a pretty chio flower garden with stars and diamonds for the borders (:

oh yes. i passed my chinese! (: haha.

i really really really need to get started on it soon.

its this week! (:
much much much love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYsnBaBqLJ4

party with us.

2009-10-12T21:58:00.003+08:00

tiring day in school. but it was one of the most fun days of my life. but one of the most embarrassing.
lots of laughter, jokes and food. HAHA.
well, the food part is for eelin aka crazy girl. she should know what i'm aiming at. first was stealing that pink thingy from my udon and then eating the you know what. and i was really really red. i was so red that i ran away to avoid people staring at me. no, staring at eelin. but since i have affiliations with her, i had to run.
oh yes. thanks crazy girl, for the sweet gesture (: i love it.
and i'm quite satisfied with my english and cpa results.

i better get started on the proposal.

so long, toodles.

rawr.

2009-10-11T16:31:00.006+08:00

am watching gossip girl now. chuck and blair are so cute together (:

school starts tomorrow.
i better get started working on the proposal.

and i hope history does not repeat itself.

yay. last paper tomorrow.
all the best (:
*smiles*

gives you hell.

2009-10-10T15:15:00.007+08:00

i am seriously a pig.
i woke up at 8am because it was raining heavily and there was thunder. i was trying to block the sound of thunder so i plugged in my earphones and played music and went back to sleep. i then woke up at 10am. then i fell back to sleep again and woke up at 12pm. i forced myself out of bed. i went to brush my teeth and wash my face. i went back to my bed and i fell asleep again with my towel. i woke up at around 1 plus. i can't believe this is part of my life. i am such a pig.

and i gotta start planning for pb camp. i can't delay it anymore. i will make this pb the most enjoyable camp. even if kung says no.
onward 58th (: love you guys from the bottom of my heart (:
oh yes. i really thank God for really good friends. i can't rely on the same person always.

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise baby
Don’t fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don’t wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we’re gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don’t want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

i want it all.

2009-10-09T11:09:00.006+08:00

she's so pretty, he's so handsome (:
GG rocks.

today is such a nothing to do day.
and i am going crazy. my siblings have watched hi-5 the whole morning and my brother has been screaming like a crazy little monkey and jumping all over the place. he opened the fridge and went to eat the apples inside and when my mum saw, she scolded him. he gave a cheeky smile and ran off to find something mischievous to do. i was listening to camp rock and he was about to insert the thumbdrive and i gave him my trademark glare. he gave me that award winning cheeky smile and smashed the thumbdrive on the floor. ARGH.

i miss school. i guess its back to playing lame games on the net to kill time. haha and i just activated my neopets account. i feel so childish. well, i guess i won't be so free for long. work will really flood and drown me really really soon. i hope i will be ready to take the role of cc with damien. SIGH.

much love.

2009-10-08T17:51:00.004+08:00

pb and sj meeting today. jiasheng was so generous. he bought us one whole big bag filled with candy and kinder joy. he must have won the lottery or something.
went out to eat lunch with v. lots of smiles and conversation (:
saw this PINK hello kitty sony ericsson phone. in case you didn't know, i've always been secretly in love with pink phones heehee.

much love.

this is so cute haha. just like you (:
much much much love.

straight through my heart.

2009-10-07T15:54:00.002+08:00

i was so irritated just now.
i didn't finish my art piece on time. i didn't draw everything i was supposed to draw. and worst of all, i only coloured a few pictures. mr sim said i have to speed up. but i can't. if i speed up, i will produce lousy workmanship.
i guess its over. i can't turn back the time.
oh yes. exams are finally over. but pb and sj stuff will start flooding in.
whether there are exams or not, i will be as busy.

do you know how upset i am?
i guess you don't.

even if the sky is falling down.

2009-10-06T14:03:00.003+08:00

i'm such a failure.
physics paper was horrible. many people complained. it seriously breaks my heart. but yeah. i guess i deserve it. for not studying hard.
at least there's something to look forward to tomorrow. i have 3 solid hours for my art paper.
and there's drilling going on outside. i just feel like opening the door and shouting SHUT UP to the workers. it drives me to insanity. i was listening to music halfway and suddenly, came the ZZZZZZ sound.

i want to watch jennifer's body. its out on 29 october (:

and the hearts all over the world tonight.

2009-10-05T17:13:00.001+08:00

this is so cute (:

cpa paper was really tricky today. i feel so frustrated. i didn't know most of the answers. but anyways, its over. i have 2 papers left. art and physics. i'm not really worried for my art but i'm extremely worried for my physics. i'm going to study like mad, really MAD later.

the can of latte kept me awake and quite alert during cpa paper today. i think i'll get one can for tomorrow.

i think i'm going to take a nap. my head is aching.

so long, toodles.

tired.

2009-10-04T21:04:00.004+08:00

felt so tired the whole day. had no mood to study for cpa and physics. i just feel like sitting in one corner and staring at the pink walls.
and my brother is destroying everything. i have no idea where he placed the cover for the computer mouse. its so frustrating. and he keeps playing with the things in my drawers. my 11 bucks is missing. i bet he must have climbed onto my table and chucked the money somewhere. i need a search party.

yay. mummy is going to get a pair of pretty pretty gray skinnies for me. and maybe another black pair. this is pure happiness. i love skinnies (:
i just saw a flash of lightning just now. i hope it doesn't rain. i'm terrified of thunder ):

to someone dear :
sorry if i sounded harsh just now. i'm sorry. i was feeling really tired then.
i know i'm forgiven but i still feel guilty.
but anyways, all the best for tomorrow. i believe you can do it.
*smiles*
xoxo.

two is better than one.

2009-10-03T13:16:00.005+08:00

i think i'm going to flunk my math paper. paper 1 was tough but paper 2 was easy. i guess i must really put in more effort for my math as i have to pass math to get into the course i want.

cpa paper is on monday. i don't think i need to revise for it that much as most of the questions are based on common sense. physics is on tuesday. i'm gonna start studying like nuts already.
but right now its going to rain and its an extremely good weather to curl up on my bed and read gossip girl. but i guess i'll chuck that book aside first.

and mr sim is so mean. he gave us our art paper a week before the exams starts. and i'm still in the midst of my research and planning. i hope i don't flunk my art.

you are so funny. haha
i look buff but fat.
so cute (:

yupyup. and all the best for monday kays. JIA YOU! (:

i feel so far away ):

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

2009-10-01T22:22:00.006+08:00

ah. finally the DAY and hour has arrived.
math paper is tomorrow.
daddy is extremely worried for me. i am equally as worried too. i'm going crazy after studying math for long periods. i was thinking of burning midnight oil but i know that it won't do me any good cos i bet i'll be half asleep tomorrow. well, everything is in God's hands right now. i'm just praying very hard that the paper will be easy to tackle.
3 more papers next week. and its the end of exams!

started reading gossip girl's take a chance on me and i'm really hooked (:

missed you. a lot.

xoxo (:

2009-09-29T21:52:00.006+08:00

english paper was easy today. it was easier than the ones we did in class. i'm sure everyone will have no problems tackling the questions. chinese paper tomorrow. hope that i'll be able to understand the questions. as you all know my chinese is horrible/terrible/atrocious. SIGH.

i think there's something wrong with my right hand/finger/wrist. it hurts when i bend it.
i need salonpas.

and i thank God that i have great friends like lim jia sheng who helped me with the minutes just now. all the credit goes to you.

i didn't study much today. but i promise i will study more tomorrow.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

2009-09-28T22:27:00.003+08:00

yes eelin. i hope you will not laugh like that during pb camp like what you did in the morning when ben pon just did an impersonation of the teachers. you were seriously on the verge of rolling on the floor just now, but you just collapsed on your bag while you were doing your friendship band thing. omgoodness. i bet lots of people were staring at us just now cos we made a lot of noise.
and we were so red. as usual.

EOYs are making me tired everyday.
its english paper tomorrow.
i don't think that there's much to revise for english. i just did some pages from my english assessment book. i hope i will maintain my high score (:

there's a meeting tomorrow. and i guess i will have to take the minutes. sigh SIGH.
woo hoo. math paper is on friday. i will SERIOUSLY cry if i fail it.

was watching this on youtube. beautiful song (:

To my favorite teacher
told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed
Where are you now

To my ex-best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band
Sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now

Where are you now
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who came
Who we're there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
They'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be how I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

2009-09-27T21:00:00.001+08:00

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
'Cause baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens every time

'Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

2009-09-27T18:41:00.004+08:00

pictures of you, pictures of me.

i'm all alone at home now.
my whole family went to my grandma's house while i stubbornly chose to stay at home to study for EOYs. now i'm starting to regret staying alone at home. i saw this flash of lightning outside just now. i really hope it won't rain. and i really really really hope that there won't be thunder.

got teased by my church member today. he asked me to grow taller.
i was stunned. i'm standing at 165 and i'm one of the tallest among the youths. he asked me to grow until i'm 172. so i can wear nice clothes and be a model. yeah, right. as if i can be one. even though i have an interest in modeling, i don't think i will want that as a career.
saw this nice pair of flats in town yesterday. i will get it during my shopping trip with lesbo. told mummy about it. she raised her eyebrows and she went how many more pairs of shoes do you want to buy?
i admit i do have a lot of shoes but i can't wear most of them anymore.

watched f1 on tv. hamilton looked really tired and he had dark rings. but yeah, he's the best.
i want the tickets so badly ):

2009-09-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

xoxo (:

i'm feeling over the moon right now.
graduation day was a stunning success. i can't help but smile really big right now. as what mrk's message said just now, our tears, effort and time didn't go down the drain but it shot up to the stars. even though the first part was ruined thanks to my cute boy guan yuan, everything else went smoothly. i'm really proud of my prefects who helped us and not forgetting my beloved 58th. love you guys. i hope we have made a great impact on the school after this event.

ate like a pig after the debrief. i seriously ate a lot. and we were making a fool of ourselves in the canteen. mostly laughter and conversation. with eelin laughing so loud as usual and talking to her boyfriend. we were so red. i bet people thought we were crazy.

and time really flies when you're having fun. i just realized that i'll be graduating next year, and i still haven't figured out what i want to do in the future. all my aspirations and dreams are so unrealistic and i'm wasting my time. went for an ite visit today and it seriously got me thinking. and, the tour guide was cute. i bet the girls are in love with him. *sigh*

2009-09-24T22:36:00.004+08:00

had a really tiring day at school today.
mrk was rushing and stressing everyone. i know tomorrow is graduation day but everyone is not supermen or superwomen right? he must think of their welfare.
had a really quick lunch. i just rammed everything into my mouth. cos time was really precious then. and crazy girl still had time to talk to her boyfriend.

( i doubt you'll read this) to crazy girl :
you really must learn how to prioritize. take one step at a time. don't rush everything. you will make a lot of mistakes if you rush everything. and you must always remember. to be a great girlfriend, you have to be understanding and there has to be trust.

i know i will hurt your feelings but i still have to say it. i don't want to bottle it up.

i'm so pissed with myself. exams are like, next week and i'm not ready!! i'm not satisfied with the way i'm studying. i keep getting distracted. rhonda wong, wake up!
and i declare that i'm officially hooked to antm. *sighs*

2009-09-23T17:02:00.006+08:00

' here comes the jungle girl!

did graduation day stuff inside/outside pb room.
there was peace and quiet for me until the big buller came and he didn't want to send the board for drilling. i kept whining and complaining until he finally agreed. he made me sound like some spoiled brat who didn't get the things she wanted. felt so frustrated and i decided to go outside to finish up my work.
graduation day is on friday. i hope everything will be fine. and, the credits won't go to the wrong people :X

missed you ):

2009-09-22T22:21:00.005+08:00

' i want nobody nobody but you.

eelin's nice hairdo. by me. *evil grin*

sinvyest is shy! (:

had a really bad day today. its that time of the month for me and i was feeling very crappy and i had cramps in the morning. i kept whining, complaining and flaring up. and i had constant mood swings. sigh. this is so not me.

was so pissed with the office lady. she didn't want to let me withdraw the key. and she gave me attitude and that what-ever-major-loser face. i felt so vulgar and i wanted to shout at her but i managed to refrain from doing that as it will make matters worse. so i just gave her an i'm not happy face and walked out of the general office calmly.
and, i just realized that the whole of my science textbook will be tested in fye. i hope i will be able to remember everything. i really hope i do not get lost in the way.

2009-09-21T20:44:00.004+08:00

' l-o-v-e ; i love you and you love me.

e18teen chefs for lunch.
baked rice, lots of big big smiles and conversation (:

all in all i had a great time today. thanks for everything. all the best for your studies. don't give up. and, thanks for the cheesecake (:

well. i think i should start studying for final year. i really should. i should stop doing what ever i am doing now and sink my head into my notes and textbooks. but i can't. america's next top model is really addictive.

2009-09-19T21:20:00.004+08:00

rehearsal in the morning. i almost overslept. i kept pressing the snooze button and i was really reluctant to get out of bed. but finally i pulled myself together and got out of bed.
i was having really bad gastric then. and i really have to thank eelin/crazy girl for buying me breakfast (: thanks girl. you saved me. if not i will be very weak and fragile during the rehearsal. i know metals expand when they are heated and contract when they are cooled. but i didn't know muscles were the same. - this is what eelin said. its according to her theory. well, if it does, no wonder it hurt so much just now. was on the verge of crying. but, i'm strong (:

so many things happened, so much time passed.
i guess you really don't understand how i really feel, do you?

2009-09-18T22:53:00.003+08:00

1st (: thanks for everything.

had a rehearsal after school today.
2 people were having pms. and i was really irritated.
i was feeling very crappy cos i was having really bad cramps and i accidentally scratched myself on the side of my eye and it started to swell. but its much better now. and my marie pen has been chewed on by strawhat. and the marie's butt is chao tah. you owe me man. and i volunteered to climb the ladder to fix the lightings. my heart almost went pop when the ladder shook and i almost fell off.
mr goh came to the hall and said that i promised him i will go to mount kinabalu but i'm going for obs instead and he was disappointed in me cos he wanted me to go. and i said that i have to give others a chance. i was always given the privilege. then he said he saluted me. well, obs is once in a lifetime. i can always go to mount k. anytime i want to, right? oh, and leonard treated us to bubble tea. thanks dude (:

walked home with crazy girl today and she was laughing all the way and i was so red. but nevermind, i'm used to it.

and i got to enjoy pasta cos mummy cooked it for dinner despite the fact that i had 3 ulcers in my mouth. i rubbed salt on it yesterday. and i don't think its that painful. its shiok. HAHA.

strawhat says i'm a chiobu who wants to be america's next top model cos i keep watching the show. thanks a lot ah.

2009-09-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

i love 18 (:

2 periods of maths, 2 periods of english, followed by 1 period of math and 3 periods of art = fun (: i love thursdays (:
i had a really sudden craving for you tiao in class. cos i heard the dou jiang you tiao song. HAHA.

and i just realized how tired i am each and everyday.
when i reach home, i will always collapse on my bed and i will just fall asleep until 7pm plus plus and my mum has to bang on my door to wake me up to eat my dinner.
i guess i need more sleep.

america's next top model is on at 11pm (:

i really miss the old times. and i miss you.

2009-09-16T21:30:00.007+08:00

wu gui (:

learning journey

i didn't know i looked like this to strawhat.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN YEE (:
ONE YEAR OLDER LE WOR (:

school in the morning.
went for learning journey at the smrt depot.
lunched at pepper lunch with lesbo. almost got food poisoning. thank God. and that lady.
satisfied with what i bought. hope you like it (:

(msn)

strawhat : i don't want to give you your pen.

me : eh. that's my pen. go and buy your own.

strawhat : ooh. why do you want your pen back?

me : its my pen. of course i want it back. it belongs to me.

strawhat : ok

me : *blur blur*

i want my pink marie pen back. even though you've chewed and bitten it.

* i'm really sorry if i hurt your feelings.
i know you're upset with me. but i really didn't want things to turn out this way.
i'm really sorry. i really am.
):

2009-09-15T21:51:00.004+08:00

i don't want to do the physics exam paper ): but well, its half completed.

sigh. learning journey tomorrow. gonna miss lessons. its a good and bad thing. bad because i'll miss maths lessons. i can't believe i even said that.

i want to go shopping! HAHA. and i want to play tennis real soon.

2009-09-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

i was really shocked when i saw that really big inflatable wugui lying on the table.
eelin screamed when she saw it.
THANKS A LOT GUYS (:
and felicia chased me with a broom today cos i was hugging the wugui.
i'm gonna get you for that man.

--

and after hearing what sharmine said about primary school kids throwing shoes at jonathan, it seriously brings back bad memories when i was bullied by them during primary 3 camp.

2009-09-13T20:19:00.003+08:00

' i am fifteen going on sixteen (:

i am under aged. i can't go for the nike 10k human race. told mummy about it and she laughed at me. ( and i don't wanna be a killjoy and spoil your fun ): well, there's always next year. i have plenty of time to train. i want to play tennis soon (: gonna get a new hand grip first.

and i realized that i'm such a fat ass. i ate one big packet of fried rice for dinner today. when usually i'll only eat half or maybe one quarter. omgoodness.

and i always want to cry when i see my physics assessment book lying on the table waiting for me to fill up. i hate physics.

school resumes tomorrow. yay (: i will work hard!

thanks for today (: *BIG SMILES*

2009-09-12T20:29:00.004+08:00

it feels so great to be home.
had trouble walking home just now because my favourite pink pair of flats were giving me really painful blisters on both heels. every step i took hurt. and it was so freaky just now. there was this really scary chinaman walking behind me and he was on the phone. he was laughing like some sick person. and i was so freaked out by him. i tried walking fast but my blisters slowed me down.

and i feel so irritated now. i missed the ben and jerrys chunk fest. ARGH. i miss chocolate chip cookie dough/chocolate fudge brownie/strawberry cheesecake ):
well, i guess there's always next time.

walkaton tomorrow, its gonna be my first time going for it. hope its gonna be fun (:

i'm craving for teh peng right now. EELIN KONG owes me teh peng and kaya toast. i want that for breakfast tomorrow. haha. mummy and daddy went down to eat. and i asked daddy to takeaway teh peng for me. HAHA.

2009-09-11T16:33:00.002+08:00

crime prevention course in the morning equals one more badge (:
then walked to tiong for lunch at kfc.
seems like there was this newly opened shop. which was those rob people of their money ones. eelin had a go trying to catch that really adorable stitch plushie but failed. we saw leonard having a go at the machines with joon guan and ryan behind him. ha! leonard failed too. saw this really huge and really cute cookie monster head in one of the machines. i want that man (:

and jia heng keeps bugging me to watch one piece. but i don't want to. its really boring.
i can't get enough of america's next model. WAHAHA. i watched the finale of cycle 12 (: pure happiness (:

2009-09-10T21:54:00.005+08:00

rehearsal in the morning. i fell asleep on the bench. i can't believe i did that. but anyways, we celebrated felicia's 15th birthday.

had lunch and studied at central, surprisingly i was able to concentrate (:
took a nap when i reached home. and i overslept even though my phone was ringing so many times.
i'm a pig. well, but, thanks for everything. i had a great time today (:

america's next top model cycle 12 is on. gotta run! (:

2009-09-09T21:57:00.003+08:00

i hate doing things that are last minute and when i do it, it keeps going the wrong way. I HATE MICROSOFT EXCEL. ARGH. having a headache now. i need to stock up on panadol.

i think i need to go shopping to cure my depression if not i'll lose control of myself even though i always keep telling myself to stop spending money-shopping-going to ion-wasting time. and to start studying.

can't wait for tomorrow (:

2009-09-08T21:57:00.003+08:00

i want to go shopping and spends lots of money and i want to learn photography! (:

YES. america's next top model is on thursday.
pure yayness man (:
i finally have time to enjoy myself. gonna be busy real soon.
yesterday's hillary challenge was really nice. the helicopter was so cute. and there were many hot guys wearing fbts. *sigh*
HAHA.

and YES eelin, i will not blurt it out !

2009-09-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

to someone. ( i don't know if you will read this ):

hold on tight.
everything will be alright, i promise.
its gonna be over soon. just a few days more.
i have faith in you. dont give up. you're halfway through your journey.
stay strong.
i'll be here.

2009-09-07T10:04:00.004+08:00

i just felt like someone dumped a truckload of things to do on me ):

took a bus to town yesterday to send my phone for servicing.
went with melisa.
went to ion for lunch. we walked around the food stalls for 4 or 5 rounds figuring out what to have for lunch. i really wanted to eat my fried noodles but i couldn't find the stall there ):
saw a pair of rubi flats and they're gonna belong to me (:
YES. and i finally bought my pens from muji and i bought this packet of candy too. everything there looks so tempting. i wanted to buy the whole store (:
i'm gonna save money and buy more high waisted skirts.and scarfs. they are just so pretty (:

going for lunch at plaza sing then for the hilary challenge closure.

sorry lesbo :x i owe you.

2009-09-05T16:30:00.006+08:00

yesterday's

today's.

public duty in the morning. grrr. got scolded and i received such crappy attitude. same as yesterday. but i just kept silent. i'm not gonna kick up a fuss cos i already made a promise and i will keep it. i'm trying my best not to break it. even though its quite hard to bottle everything up. it affected my mood for the day but i just did what i was told to do without any grumbling.

had fun during public duty. i don't know why they asked us to help them when its quite obvious that there won't be any casualties.. unless its too much of a coincidence.

photobucket and blogger are giving me problems. argh.

2009-09-03T20:47:00.003+08:00

' sine, cosine, tangent

surprisingly i managed to absorb what mr foo was teaching today. we've begin a new chapter, none other than..trigonometry. it seems quite easy to tackle but i don't know about the deeper parts. well, God will help me through it. i bought 2 new assessment books, physics and english. gonna focus on studies right now, not until FYE is over, then i'll really be able to relax.

i'm gonna like maths (:

meeting after assembly. thanks for the snickers (:
i really felt much happier.

---

sometimes i can't really understand why do you give me such a crappy attitude and it really makes me want to scream at you but i can't cos i know you'll hate me if i do that but sometimes i really cannot take it cos i'm trying to help you as much as i can but you simply refuse to listen to advice and you always run from reality and you keep covering up to block the truth and making it worse. *screaming*

i'm utterly disappointed.